This is a relatively short post! But there’s some stuff to fill you in on, some being time sensitive, so I’ll make it anyways:
I ended up writing way more than I thought I would at the end!!! Whoopsies!!! Feel free to skip over most of the end part lol I just talk about my theoretical funeral... ToT
...actual blog post time:
I'm going to start by saying that my interview went well!
I know what the job entails now, and it's pretty self explanatory. Just seating people, helping out where needed, and whatever other stuff you'd expect of an usher. I’m still nervous, but I’ll be easing into it if I do get the job, so that’s good. And there’s a good chance I do! I know a lot of the people there already, and the interview went well! So… yeah!
I said that I would probably get high afterwards. I tried to stick to that word. But I just took a hit off the penjamin danklin and gave myself an asthma attack. Which has never happened to me before. Ever. Good thing I had an inhaler handy, though. That was horrible! Maybe the doctors are right about the whole “smoking is bad” thing. LOL
The most time sensitive thing to share, though, is that there are tornadoes in my forecast tomorrow. And I live on the east coast!!!
As I mentioned in my “About Me” section, I love severe weather. I love watching tornado season coverage live with my family. We’re all kind of nerds about it. So it’s kind of a big event for all of us to be included in a moderate outlook area for the first time in a very long time is pretty eventful!
The last time my state was included at all in a moderate risk area was April 19th, 2019. But the one before that was in 2011 (no it was not that one)! And I couldn’t find any other ones from before those two… at least modern ones. So yes, it’s exceedingly rare for us to get any tornado activity. I’m a little excited! I know I shouldn’t be, considering I’m in the smack dab middle of the moderate risk area, but can you really blame me?
Anyways, if I never post here again, please assume that I was killed by a tornado. And send me some flowers and cute gifs of dogs to my guestbook. And register to vote if you’re eligible. In my memory.
In all honesty, I don’t know what I would want to happen if I were to die. I think it would be nice if people honored me and people remembered me. But not in a standard way.
I want people to graffiti my name in places high up, where I wouldn’t have been able to reach.
I want people to create in my memory, to take what I loved and what inspired me and find their own inspiration in it, so that I can live forever even when nobody is left to remember me. My inspiration will continue to exist, and therefore, I will, too.
I want people to create in general. To take up new hobbies, make new things and intend for them to be imperfect. I was never a perfectionist, so hated was the idea of a true perfect in my mind that I sought to make imperfections with purpose.
I want people to find joy in the little things. I talked about that a bit in one of my earlier posts. I wish people not only saw what I see, but stopped to enjoy it, notice it, and take it with them. I want to come with them, too.
So when I die, I don’t want to be a painful memory. I want to be little for one last time, so that I can be enjoyed as I would, taken along for the journeys I would have otherwise turned down in my lifetime, so that I can be inspired even more; so that I may inspire others.
If there is a funeral for me, I have specific wishes. I would like to be in a coffin, if I am to be buried. I don’t have much of a preference whether or not I am buried or cremated, in all honesty. If I could have my way, I’d be cremated with the intent to be made into a gemstone. But that’s probably really expensive, so I’ll stay realistic.
No stupid little casket. I want to be buried in a proper coffin! So that when I rise again as a vampire, I am extra fashionable. If you really can’t get a coffin, I’ll settle for a black casket. I guess. Boring.
And if you cremate me, make sure to put me in something silly. It can be a vase or something, sure, but make the vase funky! Give it spikes or something. I love spikes. And maybe set me up with a sick little altar? I’d love some chocolate now and then if you’re willing to provide me with that. And let me watch YouTube with you.
Oh! And before you cremate me (if you’re reading this and you already have… whoops…), take some of my hair to make into jewelry! Like Victorian style! I always thought those were a neat way to remember loved ones. Wear my hair. I’m very fashionable. And if I haunt you, I’ll be a very stylish accessory ghost.
...That got pretty deep at some points. I wasn’t expecting to get like that tonight. But I’m glad I wrote about it. At least it’s somewhere, now. Somewhere might not be forever, but the fractional existence is enough to settle my soul.
Ok, I’m actually done now. I promise. Maybe I’ll go into extreme detail at some point, but I’m going to bed for now!
See you in the storm!
(P.S: I managed to write and post this from my phone??? I did not want to stand up to use my laptop. Lmao. If this post is fucked up then blame my laziness!)