Tomorrow, I have an interview.
For some context, back in 2023 after I graduated high school and before I started college, I worked at a theme park that was only around 20 minutes from my house. My mom showed me the job listing to tease me, both because I am a furry and because there was a maximum height requirement of 5'1! We'd never seen a job listing have a maximum height before, especially one so short, and because I am well under that limit- at 4'10 and 3/4ths, to be precise- I applied to be a mascot there and got the job! It was a hell of a lot of work in the summer heat. OSHA exists for a damn good reason, and I'm so grateful that I wasn't required to be outside for the full 30 minutes you're technically supposed to be out for in costume.
It was still kind of terrible, though. A fursuit with extra steps and extra heft and shoes that don't really fit, making it even harder to walk. The heads were also heavy, and you could barely see out of them. Obviously you had someone with you in costume to talk to guests, guide you where you needed to go, and to get you in and out of costume, but jesus! And fuck those horrible stairs I had to walk up and down in costume to get to our changing room!!! Why did they do that to us???
Anyways... I worked for them again this fall, only for about a month and only on the weekends, though. But I'm not freshly 18 anymore, and I'm a lot heavier than I was 3 years ago. So even just the weekends in the fall was a lot on me. Nearing the end of the summer of 2023, I'd asked them to start giving me cohort (person with the mascot rather than the mascot themself) jobs because of how draining the role was. And jesus christ if I wasn't already tired of it by the first weekend.
So when their entertainment department emailed me this February, I initially wanted to ignore it, but since I do need a job and the market is so bad right now, I caved and responded with a catch: I did not want to work as a mascot again!!!
As fun as parts of it were, and as much as I adore my coworkers, I'd probably fucking die.
So, they've offered me a different role. One that I'm unfamiliar with. Genuinely, I have no idea what it is. Which is partially why I'm so nervous for this interview; I don't know what I'm applying for!
I know kind of what the deal of it is, but it's still an unfamiliar role. An usher, like a cohort, but specifically for the little mascot shows they put on. At least, I think that's what the role is. Again, I don't know. And it's at the same time as some other auditions for shows, like for dancers and musicians and stuff like that. Which would also be fun, but I'm not good enough at either of those things to perform like that. And I'd get terrible stage fright. It feels different when you're on a field pretty far away from the audience in a marching band versus when you're singing and dancing on a stage. Trust me, I've done both!
But seriously. I'm nervous. I know I really shouldn't be, but there are a lot of variables I'm worrying about right now.
The other big one is that I don't know what the fuck I want to do with my life. I applied and got into the local community college with the intent to take classes in order to get into a different program for radtech (the people who give x-rays and MRIs and stuff), but looking at that course load, I don't know if that's something I want to do. It sounds fun, but I'm not sure if the medical field is something that's right for me, even if it's relatively indirect. And I'd have to start taking classes this summer if I were to get into the program this fall. UHG. I don't know!!!
Too much is happening in my brain!!! I ordered a penjamin off of some site and it shipped to my house a few weeks ago. I've smoked a little bit since then, definitely not used to it. Hate the smell and taste and everything of weed but it feels pretty nice. I smoked back during quarantine a bit but that was years and years ago. I'm definitely smoking tomorrow after my interview. Hell, maybe a bit tonight so I can sleep soundly. I have to go to my brother's house to clean in an hour or so, so after I get home from that. Maybe I'll pick something up for dinner. My friend was talking about getting maccas earlier, might get a shamrock shake and something. Fuck if I know.
Also, I added a little music box on my homepage. Took a lot of trial and error (mostly error) but I got something to work! There's even a little volume slider! Hell yeah!
A lot of the coding and stuff is from monsieurdoll's site, so big thanks to them for the help! Wouldn't have been able to do it without something to build off of!
I'll update eventually, as y'all know. No set schedule for this bad boy, we rawdog it in these parts.
Sayonara!